Coachee
I've just signed up for some coaching.
I last worked with a coach as part of my coursework for my EMCC Level 5 qualification in Effective Coaching and Mentoring a couple of years ago.
Even though I was being coached by someone like me, someone who was still in training to become a coach, the power of the models we were using and the genuine curiosity of my coach around my obstacles, and her willingness to help me resolve my own issues, was pivotal in the creation of Bright Coaching and the Professional Diploma.
At that time, I doubted my ability to bring to life the vision I had in my head for Bright Coaching. I experienced self-doubt, imposter syndrome, crippling procrastination, and decided - definitively - twice - that it was never going to happen.
I'd go as far to say that Bright Coaching only exists because of my coach. So. Thank you, Meg .
Why am I returning to coaching? Because it works.
At the risk of over-sharing, I'm feeling a little frazzled. I'm not stressed - that's a different feeling, potentially very serious, the solution for which, for me at least, requires a break, more attention to my diet and exercise routines. I have experienced stress in a previous life, and I recognise the differences.
My obstacles right now are performance-related. I'm just not seeing things as clearly as I often do on a professional and personal level, and I can feel some of my old, bad habits starting to creep into my working week. Emails not being responded to, communication with my teams slipping, poor use of my time. A slight uptick in alcohol intake, and a marked drop in weekly step count.
Crucially, for the purposes and intended audience of this post, these are problems that, intellectually, I know how to resolve.
I do not lack knowledge of how to make lists, prioritise, manage projects, and generally be an effective person. I have those skills and I have been an effective ADI, ADI trainer, business owner, and leader previously. I have been that person as recently as a few months ago.
I understand completely and truly that the consequences of not resolving the feelings I am experiencing and the behaviour I am engaging in are counter-productive to my goals. I am reasonably intelligent. I do not believe that I am lazy.
The issue I am faced with has something to do with the fact that my own internal logic is not getting me out of a slump and over an obstacle.
Somewhere along the way, we stop improving.
Somewhere along the way, we lose a little bit of what got us to where we are.
Somewhere along the way, you may be able to help someone like that.
Stewart.
